Thursday, December 9, 2010

Four Years

Jerry and I have been dating for four years today.

The time has gone by fairly fast, although at times it seems as though it has been forever.

We spent 5 months in High school dating. 1 year, he was in Rock Springs, while I was still in high school. The next year he was in Rock Springs, while I was at Weber. The year after that we went to Weber together, and for the last 9 months, we have lived together in a tiny house.

My love for him has never subsided, in fact I know that it has grown everyday since day one.

I love the time that we get to spend together and just talk about our day. He never leaves a detail out, about what he did at work each day. He continues to tell me about the work that he does on cars, even though he knows I don't understand.

He questions me about the cars that we pass on the road, and when I get one right he always says, 'Good work.'

He never fails to tell me good luck before a test, and tell me, 'I knew you'd do good,' when I tell him my score.

He always remembers to give me [[3]] kisses before we fall asleep, and he gives me more, when I think it's necessary. :)

He never questions the crazy things that I want to do in my life.

And he puts up with my crazy cleaning routine, in which I believe you should always dust BEFORE you vacuum, even though he insists on vacuuming first.

He let me put up our Christmas tree before Thanksgiving.

He doesn't get mad when the house becomes a disaster when I do all my crafts.

He loves to tickle me, especially when I'm laughing too hard to tell him to stop.

He's a picky eater, but when he finds something that he likes, he eats it a lot.

He would eat popcorn every night, if I let him. And if we had a bigger house, that he could chomp on popcorn without me hearing, I would let him. :)

He is a hard worker, he is smart and he is always willing to help out other people.

He loves to be with kids, almost as much as I do. ;)

He hangs Maddie over the edge, and teases her, and she teases him in return.

And he has really taken a liking to his role as 'uncle Jers'.

My mom loved Jerry too, and that is one more thing that makes our relationship very special to me. He has helped me out through so many things, and he has never once complained.

He is so special to me, he always texts me to tell me that he loves me, at least 3 times a day. He helps cook dinner and hangs lights on our house for Christmas.

He is absolutely, the best boyfriend that I could ever possibly ask for. <3

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Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Smile Because She Lived

Sometimes it seems as if it were yesterday, when I think back to that elevator ride when my dad told me that my mom had passed away within the night.

It seems like yesterday when I had the huge lump in my throat, looking at caskets at the funeral home.

The funeral, viewing and rosary, seem only minutes ago.

But then I think back to the last day that I spent with my sweet mom, we got our nails done, went to the store, and made dinner together, it seems as if it were many years ago...much more than just two.

I think back to our last conversation, our last hug, our last 'I love you.'

We have so many memories together, many more than most mothers and daughters can claim.

I can remember lessons she taught me, I can remember gifts she gave me, and I can remember the never ending love, that I can still feel to this day.

There are so many times, that I just wish that my mom was with me. I just want to show her things, I want to have her help me with things, and I want her to see the things that I have achieved.

I want her to see me graduate college, get married and have kids. I want her to see Kimber grow up, though I know she will be with me through it all. I just wish she was here.

I miss her a lot, so much everyday! I talk to her, and I ask her for help. I just wish that I could call her up on the phone. Oh I can just imagine all the things I would tell her.

As my dad and I were at church on Sunday, it seemed as though Father Bueno was preaching directly to us, as the entire service was about life after death. At one point he read, "He is not God of the dead, for to him, everyone is living." And to me, my mom is still alive, she is just so much father away than the other side of the world.

Sometimes, I still resort back to the thoughts that this isn't real, and maybe she is just hiding, and or on vacation. Some days it's easier to feel sorry for my self and to think that life is just not fair.

But I know that all things happen for a reason. And If God brings you to it...He will bring you through it.

But at times, this journey is more than just making it through it. Sometimes it is about helping others, and letting others know that they are not alone. Sometimes losing a life is about more than just missing them, it is about their journey to heaven. I know that someday I will be reunited with me mom. And I can't wait for the day that I can hug her again. The day that she will make me laugh again.

Life is so short, and you never know when you might lose your best friend. If I can give you any advice today, tell your mom you love her, call you mom....right now. Visit as often as you can and make sure that they know just how much they mean to you.

"You can shed tears that she is gone,

or you can smile because she has lived.

You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back

or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.

Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,

or you can be full of the love you shared.

You can remember her only that she is gone,

or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.

You can cry and close your mind,

be empty and turn your back.

Or you can do what she'd want:

smile, open your eyes, love and go on."

-David Harkins

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Tuesday, November 2, 2010


I have been getting really excited for Thanksgiving and Christmas lately.

I even started listening to Christmas music today. =]

I have decided that this year for Christmas, I am going to make all of the gifts that I will be giving away.

I think that it will be fun, not to mention cheaper. Besides that, I think that the stuff I make, usually turns out better than things you can find in the stores, and because it's from the heart, it means more to the recipient.

I will try to keep you updated with the gifts as I make them. But some of them, I won't be able to share until after Christmas.

I already have some great ideas, I can't wait to get started. :)

We just need a little snow outside...I would love that!

Anddd Thanksgiving is only 3 weeks away, I have been looking up yummy recipes! =]

As I type this, Jerry is reading ridiculous ski patrol scenarios to me that he has made up. Oy Vey, where did I find him?

Happy November!

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Friday, October 29, 2010

Happy Halloween!!

I have been so busy lately with school. I keep thinking of things I want to post about, but I never seem to find the time to post about them.

In the last few weeks I have,

...creating a 5 day unit on Community Helpers, I will be teaching it to first graders in 2 weeks.

...visited my sister, Kimber and Jay. My sweet sister celebrated her 26th birthday. My whole life she has been calling me her 'little sister'. And I'm afraid that even though now at age 21 and 26, there doesn't seem to a huge age difference, I will always be her little sister, and I'm okay with that. :)

...finally finished paying off this semester of tuition. Today was my last payment, hallelujah.

...cleaned my house, while I was so busy with school, the house became a disaster.

Well, I know I have done more, but I just can't think of it right now.

I want to wish you a very Happy Halloween. Have a safe, but scary night. :)

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Thursday, October 14, 2010

Prince Charming

Lately, my Jerold Dean has been so sweet. First of all, he bought me my all time favorite movie. It came out of the Disney Vault last week. He even watched it with me. Someday, I will tell all of you why this movie is so special to me. :)
And tonight, I walked in my bedroom to find this, do you see it? Those big beautiful pink roses?! He even killed the spider that he brought in with them. :)
Oh how lucky I am to have him in my life. I couldn't ask for a better best friend, boyfriend and prince charming. :)

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Wednesday, October 13, 2010


One day a woman's husband died, and on that clear, cold morning, in the warmth of their bedroom, the wife was struck with the pain of learning that sometimes there isn't "anymore".

No more hugs, no more special moments to celebrate together, no more phone calls just to chat, no more "just one minute."

Sometimes, what we care about the most gets all used up and goes away, never to return before we can say good-bye, say "I love you."

So while we have it, it's best we love it, care for it, fix it when it's broken and heal it when it's sick.

This is true for marriage.....And old cars... And children with bad report cards, and dogs with bad hips, and aging parents and grandparents. We keep them because they are worth it, because we are worth it.

Some things we keep -- like a best friend who moved away or a sister-in-law after divorce. There are just some things that make us happy, no matter what.

Life is important, like people we know who are special.. And so, we keep them close!

Suppose one morning you never wake up, do all your friends know you love them?

I received this from a good friend. I know that this holds true, always.

I just hope that all of you know that I love you.

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Thursday, October 7, 2010

DO a good weekend.

Since the beginning of the semester, every Thursday (because we don't have class on Fridays) one of my teachers has been telling my class, "Do a good weekend." I always just thought, "hmmm that's dumb. Have a good weekend teach!" Haha...but then today I thought to myself, 'why does he say that'? So that got me thinking...

We always tell each other, "Have a good day!" "Have a good weekend." "Have a good day at school" But what will cause us to 'have' a good weekend? There isn't a promise out there that our weekend will be good. There isn't a guarantee, there isn't any assurance, or security or warranty. There is no one else out there that is going to ensure your 'good weekend'. But instead, we should "Do a good weekend."

We should [do] everything in our power to ensure that we have a good [do] a good weekend.

Nothing in life is guaranteed, and we, ourself, should make our life enjoyable, to make it good.

To have a good life, we should do a good life. What does it mean to have a good life? To be happy? To have money? To make a difference in someone's life? All of which won't happen without action. Without a verb... [do] We must do, we must work, we must attempt, strive and sacrifice.

So [do] a good weekend, would you?

Do you know what I am going to [do] this weekend?

Jerry and I are going golfing with Bart and Rani. But first I am cleaning the highway, with Golden Key Honour Society. So if you see me on the side of I-84 between mile markers 101-103, wave, or even stop by and pick up a little trash, or at the very least, please refrain yourself from disposing of your trash at that point. :) I think we will finish off our weekend with a few chores and homework.

Do a good weekend my friends!

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Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Baby Charles

Baby Charles Bradley Leavitt was born late on October 4th. Since his birth he has been in the NICU. As of last night he has been placed on a ventilator. The nurses told his mom he is a lot happier now that he is not having to work so hard. He was also given antibiotics for an infection that they found within his little body.

Charles could use your help. Please keep this little boy in your prayers. He is already loved so much.

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Tuesday, October 5, 2010


The challenge before us is never as great as the power behind us.

As we make our way through life, there will always be challenges. Without challenges, life would be bland, nothing would have a purpose and we wouldn't have joy to celebrate.

Sometimes you just have to believe in yourself, believe in others and trust that everything will work it's way out.

There are times in our life when it would be much easier to just give up, to let go and forget. Doing the right thing isn't always easy. But we always have the strength within ourself, to overcome any situation. Sometimes this strength comes from love and other times it comes from faith.

Challenges in life make our life [[rich.]]

We all have to find that one person, that one thing, that one dream, desire, want, need that is worth fighting for. At some point in our life, we have to choose our battles. We could ask our self, "Is this worth tearing my self down over?" Knowing that in the end we will build our self back up, bigger and better than ever before.

When I woke up this morning, things were gloomy.

In more than one situation.

One of my very best friends had her baby last night. He is currently in the NICU. He is healthy, but small. He weighs 5lbs 13 oz and 19 inches long. He is a beautiful baby. And as a day old baby. He is fighting his first of many life's challenges.

We take so many things in life for granted, but if we are thankful for one thing today, let us be thankful for the challenges that life throws at us. Because if it weren't for these challenges we wouldn't be the person we are, frankly, we would be weak.

The truth is, I believe in you. I believe in the strength that you have within your self. I know that you are strong, as you have been through many of life's challenges. I believe that you deserve happiness. Do you?

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Monday, October 4, 2010

It's not every October day that you have the opportunity to go to the beach, with your very best friend.

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Thursday, September 30, 2010

Just another ordinary day.

To my dismay Jerry informed me this morning at 6:57 that I had a meeting at 8. What would I do without him? His memory may fail him at times, but he remembers the important stuff.

I took a shower, got ready and headed to campus for a Golden Key Honour Society Meeting.

As I walked from the parking lot (one I won't get a ticket in), to the education building I hurried, as I was already late. Everyday I dread the hike up the hill and up to the 3rd floor of the education building, and today I had to do it twice.

As I walked up the hill mountain....I noticed that the sun was just coming over the mountain. It was probably about 70 degrees and I looked at the changing colors up on the mountain. I decided to take a picture, I waited until no one was on the sidewalk in front of me. I didn't want anyone thinking I was taking their picture after all. And here it is...

I would have to say, Weber State is a beautiful campus, and if my tuition is worth a penny over what I think I [[should]] have to pay for classes, at least I get a beautiful view.
And uhm...does that look a hike or what?? The building I go to is just past the stop light on the right. And the parking lot that I park at is probably a 1/4 of mile behind where this picture was taken.
Also, just to inform you....I decided to cross the street right after I took this picture. As I crossed a car came flying out of no where, (I probably should have crossed at the light, I know) I hurried and ran the rest of the way...where I ran into the Coke man. Don't worry, I excused my self and made it to my meeting...just slightly late. :)

So this Education classes are on the third floor, and man, that is a lot of stinkin' stairs...especially when you go in the basement doors....which makes it climbing to the 4th floor. Okay, I know I'm complaining, but do you ever just feel like if you give in and take the elevator, people will just assume you are a lazy person? Because if I did take the elevator, I think I would have to wear a sign around my neck that says, "I'm not lazy, you should see the mountain I just hiked!" Haha, maybe I'll try that. :)

Well, the rest of my day was pretty average. Tomorrow is Friday, I am going to meet the 1st grade class that I will be teaching for 2 weeks. I have another meeting, and some chores are calling my name. I am hoping to have time to make banana bread out of the black bananas that currently sit in my kitchen. My dad, Penny and Maddie will be here Saturday for a football game, and Maddie and I get to go swimming in the hotel swimming pool. It will be a good time.

Happy Weekend Everyone!

'Enjoy the little things in life. For one day you will look back and realize they were the big things.' -Robert Blunt

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Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Just Enough Time To Say...

Hello my friends!

I hope that you find yourself happy and healthy this Tuesday at 11:52 am. I know that I sure am!

I started back at the Daycare last week, and so far, I'm loving it. :) I sure did miss those kiddos.

I'm getting excited that Fall is on it's way, and Halloween, Thanksgiving, Winter, Christmas and snowboarding are just around the corner. I hope we can all contain our excitement! :) And with Christmas comes another end to another semester!! :))

Although, I have to say, I'm going to miss my garden, our fresh peaches, tomatoes, grapes and so much more! I can't wait to have an even bigger garden next year!

Jerry and I got to go on a picnic last weekend. We had a lot of fun, and it's nice to spend time together....with nothing to worry about. :)

In one of my classes, we endured a Ropes Course, yesterday. My leg now has a pretty blue bruise from my mission over a 13 foot wall. :)

Well, that's all for now. I'm listening to a little Billy Joel...[[Vienna]] to be exact. :) And I'm headed to class. I will find out today what grade I will be teaching for 2 weeks in November.

Laugh Your Heart Out!

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Tuesday, September 14, 2010

My Dream

I'm ready to be a teacher already, at North Elementary Second grade please.

Let me tell you a little story.

When I was 5 years old, I went to Kindergarten orientation, they asked me to draw a stick figure. I had no idea what a stick figure was. After some explaining from my sweet mom, I quickly drew the best stick figure I possibly could. And that, was my very first memory of school. Well, outside of singing "I scream, you scream, we all scream for Ice Cream" in pre-school.

My love for school grew, thanks to my kindergarten teacher Ms. Rugger. I spent two years with Ms. Rugger, and for that I am so very thankful. I have had a great love for school since that day when I was 5 years old. Every year, I would get anxious for the new school year as my parents bought me school supplies. I would pack my school supplies in my backpack and I would take them out everyday and look at them until school started. I would smell my crayons, and make sure they were in perfect order within the little box. I would organize my pencil box and sharpen my pencils. I went everyday to Kindergarten, anxious to see my new best friend Ms. Rugger. I went home with stories about her everyday, and my mom even bought us best friend Micky Mouse necklaces, you know the kind that are a split heart and fit together, because we were the very best friends.

I continued my education, I went to first grade with Mrs. Thorpe, Second Grade with Mrs. Sharp, Third Grade with Mrs. Bowcutt,Fourth Grade with Mrs. Kaufman, and in Fifth Grade I had my first male teacher, Mr. Larson. I enjoyed everyday of school, except the day I had school after school for not completing my homework, and I came sobbing to the car when my mom picked me up. I promise you, I never forgot my homework again.

I knew at an early age that I wanted to be a teacher. I use to tell my mom that I wanted to be an art teacher. It was soon apparent that my art skills were not developing at a rate that I could be a graduate from an art program, but my love for education never subsided.

And here I am, in my 3rd year of college. I go to school everyday to learn how to teach. I just can't wait until the day that I am given the keys to my very own classroom, the day that I receive my first list of students who will be with me through out the day for an entire 8-9 months of their life. I can't wait until the day, that there is a student who might possibly be my best friend, or the one student that says, "You taught me."

And what about Ms. Rugger? She's a principal in Nevada. She recently created a Facebook, and I am so very glad to keep in close touch with her. When I was in 5th grade I had the opportunity to go visit her in Nevada. We still remain close friends, and if necessary I bet she would wear that Mickey Mouse necklace with me again. :)

On the day of my high school graduation, my fifth grade teacher told me that he would wait to retire until I had my teaching license so that I could take over his job. How great that would be.

As I go through college, I imagine what my life as a teacher will be. I always imagine North Elementary. Every time I'm in Evanston, and we drive past North, I tell Jerry, "Man, I just wanna work there." Because I honestly do, I can't imagine being a teacher anywhere else.

I realize that I am being a little unrealistic, but I know that God cares about our hopes and dreams, and wherever I get the chance to be a teacher will be the right place.

Here's to my last 3 semesters in college, I will make it the best, the very best.

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Thursday, September 9, 2010

Money, Money, Money

Why is it that our lives revolve around [money]?

We have names for people that have excess [money]....the rich...the wealthy, possibly the better off?

And those with lack of [money]...the poor...the less fortunate.

When we are born our parents have huge [expenses] for our birth, for our new life, our clothes, food and shelter.

These expenses continue until we reach a point in our life in which we can obtain our own job, and earn [money].

At time of our high school graduation we begin considering how we will enter the world as a fresh young adult. We then decide, will I enter the work force and begin a family? Will my job provide enough [money], for me to support a family?

Some of us choose to go to college, but in order to go to college, we are expected to make an investment in our self, this investment costs thousands of [dollars.] Some of us may decide that we do not have the [money] to pay for college, so we then take out loans. A loan, that we expect we will be able to pay back, with the [money] that we hope to make as a worker with a college degree.

From that point forward, we go to work in cars that we put gas in, using the [money] that we earn.

We have children, we buy houses, cars, entertainment systems and anything that we feel will make our life ((richer)).

We pay to get married.

We fight over money and possessions as we get a divorce.

We save. We earn. We spend. We donate. We waste.

We waste our life, over [money].

I realize that money is crucial to human survival at this point in America.

But what does it truly mean to be rich?

To me,

watching the sunset, as I sit on the beach with my family, that makes me rich.

Having a relationship with my dad, where I can tell him everything, that makes me rich.

Making dinner and enjoying it with Jerry,that makes me rich.

I am rich because I have friends and family that celebrate with me when I'm at the top and encourage me when I'm at the bottom.

Rich is, spending 19 years of your life, with a mother who loves you, unconditionally.

Talking to God, knowing he understands. Believing in yourself. Loving, caring, inspiring.

These are the things, that make me rich.

Money will always be a struggle. But life, is not a struggle, as long as your willing to look past the burden of money, the burden of possessions and look to see where you are the richest.

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Monday, August 23, 2010

Kimber Barrett Roberts

I have really neglected my blog lately. Sometimes my life is just so busy to record, but nonetheless, a lot has happened.

Firstly, and possibly most importantly, my neice, my princessa, my favorite little baby was born.

Kimber Barrett Roberts was born July 29, 2010 at 5:36 PM. She weighed 8 pounds 8 ounces.

She is absolutely
perfect! I love her.

It's amazing how you wait for 9 months, for this little person to join your life, and you imagine the entire time what she might look like, or how her personality may form, but we can never imagine just how perfect, such a little tiny person can be.

My dad, Penny and I, drove to Jackson, Wyoming to welcome baby Kimber in the world. I was so anxious to meet her. I know that my mom is so excited to be a grandma.

Last week I got to go stay with Jessica and Kimber for an entire week!
I got to hold, and feed and cuddle with the baby the entire time.

I had to come back to Ogden today for school, oh how I will miss that baby. I sure do love her.

Someday, I know that we will be the best of friends. I can't wait to see her grow and develop, and become an amazing person.

She is just so absolutely perfect already.

I love her.

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Monday, July 26, 2010

The worst nights sleep ever.

Last night, I could not sleep....for the life of me.

I tossed and turned, and rotated my pillow. I tried sleeping close to Jerry, and on the edge of the bed. I listened to the music that was playing, and I tried to ignore it. But nothing I did seemed to work. I began thinking of my mom, and cried a little. I just kept thinking about the things in life that I wish she was here to experience with me. I prayed, for my dad, for my future, and for Jerry, Penny, Jessica, Jay and baby Kimber too. I asked my mom to give me a hug, as I have many times before. I thought a lot about work, and money, and school and life.

I kept thinking, everyday, for five days, Jerry and I...

Wake up, shower, brush our teeth, drive to work, work, drive home from work, eat dinner, watch tv, and go to bed.

Some days we add in some laundry, or dishes or a drive around town. But overall, we work, we work so that we can live. However, I don't think we should live to work.

I know that for many many reasons, work is crucial in our life. It is important to learn to work hard and to work hard for the things we want most in life. It is important to work, to support our self, and our family. However, I just feel that there is more to life than working. I'm not saying, "Quit your job, you're wasting your time." I'm just saying, if we are going to spend 5/7ths of our week doing something, let's make it something worth while. Yes, I do think I will graduate from college. :)

So, every once in a while, I write a blog, I think, "Man, how stupid. Maybe I should just delete that, and forget it." And that's how I feel tonight. But, for tonight, I'll post.

Oh, and to finish off my sleepless night, Jerry has a horrible, annoying, consistent, hacking, cough. And so, for those moments, when my mind wasn't running, he was coughing. ay.ay.ay

In other news:

*My dad and I are leaving for Jackson, WY to welcome baby Kimber on Wednesday. I just can't wait!

*It looks like rain out. :) I love that!

*Jerry and I only have about a month until Fall semester starts, crazy? Yes.

Well, I guess I just don't have much to say, or at least not as much as I had thought. And not even any pictures. Should I even post....

I hope that you have the best night's sleep tonight. Good night my friends!

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Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Happy Wednesday!

So, remember this Lady???
*Her due date is July 24. So we have been waiting, and waiting.....and still more waiting.
She had an appointment today. They decided that if the baby doesn't come by next Wednesday, my sister sue will be induced next Wednesday at 5 pm! Yahoo! I can't wait for my little niece to get here.

[[May you follow your dreams and always believe in yourself, keep your eyes on the stars, and hope in your heart.]]

*When I was a freshman in college, my mom came to visit one day, and decided that my little dorm needed a little life! So she bought me the cutest little plant. About six months, I re-potted it, because it was growing so big. And I decided to leave the plant at my house in Evanston, because it was too big for my dorm. Well, about a week and a half ago, I looked at the plant, it this is how it looked. :( I was heart broken. This is the plant my mom gave me. Plants can live forever if taken care of properly, and I had every intention to keep it alive...forever. But look at it? I re-potted it again today. I gave it some plant food, oh how I hope it makes a come back! Rani tells me it needs some TLC, and tender loving care it will get!

[[A memory is a way of holding on to the things you love, the things you are, and the things you never want to lose.]]

*I chipped my tooth last Friday, while at the movie theater, eating a life saver. Today it was fixed!! Hallelujah!!

[[May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy.]]

*It was a beautiful night tonight in Ogden!

[[The happiest people don't have the best of everything. They just make the best of everything.]]

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