Friday, April 30, 2010

When Life Gives you Lemons

Today, while I was driving home from Ogden alone, I thought a lot about things.

It is scientifically proven, that every action has a positive or negative reaction.

In life, our every action, has a positive or negative consequence.

It is for us to decide;

We can, learn from the experience, we can grow and essentially make good choices in our future. We can teach those around us, not to make the same mistakes that we have made.

Or, we can dwell on the situation, feeling sorry for our self, and blaming others. And in time, we will once again continue to make the same mistakes.

It's not for me to tell you, how you should feel, what things you should and should not do.

With that being said, I feel that it is important for us to experience the consequences of our actions. It frustrates me when, we (as in all humans) are "bailed out" of our consequences. We become cheated, out of a life lesson, one that will teach us, from that point forward. A lesson that will teach us to become better, to become our best!

If Johnny hits his brother, and his mother tells him he must tell his brother sorry, and then sit in the corner for 5 minutes, Johnny will learn that hitting his brother is unacceptable, he will learn that his actions, has a negative result, and he will no longer hit his brother.

However, if Johnny's father decides to take Johnny out of the corner, Johnny will never gain the experience of being punished. He will continue to hit his brother.

This happens through life,

When someone goes to jail, they can be bailed out.

If we spend more money than we have and go into debt, we can file bankruptcy.

If we can't pay for college, the government will pay for it.

In fact, in all life situations, there is a bail out. What incentive is there to do the right thing anymore? If there is always someone there to catch us when we fall, why should we even try to stand alone?

Why should we tell the truth, when we are expected to lie?

Why should we practice to become a good baseball player, if everyone makes the team.

Why should we keep score at those baseball games, if the parents will be upset when their child loses, and essentially they will deem all players as winners.

Someone has to lose, in order to win. Someone has to lose in order to have the incentive to win.

I don't think we should bail each other out of consequences. We shouldn't cheat someone out of a lesson. We shouldn't take away the chance to become a better person.

Why not,

Be our own best friend.

Work hard, everyday.

Work to make money, to support our selves.

Accept the consequences of our actions.

Always tell the truth.

Overuse "I love you."

Say Thank you.

Pray to God.

Never accept a bailout.

Be there for your friends and family. Don't bail them out of the lessons in life. There is a reason that every action has a positive or negative reaction.

Be proud of the person you see in the mirror everyday. If you're not, you're doing something wrong.

Have faith in yourself!

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Monday, April 26, 2010

I just need to get my foot in the door.

Or maybe both feet, as my Uncle Curt would say.

It seems like there are plenty of jobs I'm willing to do, I mean if someone called to have me pick up dog poop in the back yard, and would pay me for it, I would do it.

But out of the 239872930319832497384 jobs I have applied for, nothing seems to work.

I'm part time....they need full time.

There are 2 hours a day that I need to be in school....they say there is no way, we can work around those 2 hours.

Must have experience, it's hard to get experience if no one gives you a chance.

Must have a Utah drivers license.

I have 2 trips and 2 baby showers that fill my weekends of May, must work all weekends.

Graveyard shifts...psh, like I'm going to do that in Ogden, with all the gangs, not to mention I have school everyday.

I could drive to Salt Lake for a job, but it's far.

I could babysit, but it's not reliable enough.

No one trusts anyone in Ogden. In Evanston, everyone knows you, and knows that your a good hardworking person. Not in Ogden.

Well, it'll come. With a little faith, right?

I have two interviews tomorrow. Keep your fingers crossed would you?

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Thursday, April 22, 2010


Some days, having faith is harder than others.

Some days having faith just means getting out of bed, to try again.

Faith may be giving second chances.

Praying to God, that's faith.

Knowing everything has a way of working it's self!

Looking on the bright side...

Seeing the glass half full....

Going against the odds...

Supporting the underdog...

Taking chances...

Believing in miracles....

Faith. Faith. Faith.

And just a little goes a long way.

Believe in your dreams.

Set goals, and reach them.

Support others and always give second chances...people change.

Finish strong at the end of the semester.

Apply for one more job, it could be the one!

Trust that cars can be repaired, with a reasonable amount of money.

Everything will be okay, if You I just have a little faith.

And I do.

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Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Kimber is coming!

We went to see some family this weekend. Jerry and I stayed with Jessica and Jay. I was so glad to see them. And I was excited to see Jessica's big belly, Kimber is definitely on her way. I can't wait for her to get here.
Steeler loves the baby belly. But I think he has a big surprise coming for him when he realizes he won't be the center of attention anymore.
I think he'll adjust okay though. He'll be a good big brother!

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Wednesday, April 14, 2010

You are my sunshine

It's been a good day. A good day full of blessings. I have realized that life is precious. It's nice to spend time savoring the moment, spending time with those you love and just breathing in, fresh, warm air.

Last night, I scrambled to get everything done for today, including a major project, a 12 page psychology paper, a earthquakes worksheet and lesson plan to be implemented in class. stayed up until 1 am last night and work at 6:30 this morning. I got everything finished, one time, and I feel that I did a good job.

As I went to bed last night, at 1 am, I began thinking about our little house, did I mention that we got it?! I am so excited about it! I can't stop thinking about how I want to decorate it, I want to have some flowers out side, I want to have our own little place. I am so excited about it!

Jerry picked me up from class today, and I was so relieved to be done with so many big assignments. He had all the windows down and the sun roof open. I took a deep breath and told him it was warm! I asked him if we could get a slushee from 7-11. So we began driving. We passed a few 7-11's and just kept driving. We drove north for miles. We saw some incredibly big houses, we talked about being little, and spending the summer outside on our bikes, we decided that we miss it! It was so nice to just drive around together, carefree. Jerry pulled off the side of the rode, and we could see the whole Salt Lake Valley. It was refreshing. I love days like today.

I am overwhelmed with love and compassion. I feel as though I am the luckiest girl. I just want everyone to know how much I appreciate them.

Jerry, Jerold, Jers-Thank you so much for being my best friend. Thank you for laughing at my jokes, and telling me that everything will be okay. Thank you for driving me around Ogden, to look at giant houses. Thank you for being the one person that is always there fore me, everyday.

Dad- Thanks for calling me everyday, and for loving me as much as you do. You'll always be my best friend, you know? You are the sweetest, best dad in the entire world, and I couldn't have made it here without you.

Penny- Thanks for caring about me. Thank you for the sweet emails, and for taking an interest in my life. I can't tell you how much I appreciate you. You are one special person. Thanks for being my friend.

Uncle Curt- I miss you so much. Thank you for sending me holiday cards, and caring about my schooling. You're the best uncle any kid could ask for.

Pete- Thanks for being the best sister in the world. I can't wait to spend time with you this weekend!

Blog friends- Thank you for reading my stories, my fears, my pride and my rants. You're the best.

Spring has sprung!

Happy Wednesday!

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Monday, April 12, 2010

Oh the Memories

It's days like today that just thinking about old memories has me on the verge of tears. It has been a gloomy day. Jerry found out that his car is still broken, and he is thinking about selling it. Neither of us have heard from jobs and we rescheduled the meeting with the land lord. It's cloudy outside, and looks like it will probably rain.

I was going through my sent emails today, and found emails that my mom sent me. Just reading them makes me miss her, but I can hear her saying the things that she wrote. I miss having my mom send me emails, just to tell me hello, and that she missed me. I love that sweet Momma of mine and I will never ever ever forget how much she means to me. She was such a special lady.

Sometimes I wonder if other people think about their mom as often as I think about mine. I mean, when I really get down in the dumps, I talk to her. When I'm upset and Jerry asks me what's wrong, I tell him, "I just want my mom." Sometimes I talk to her. Sometimes I tell her to make me study. There are times when I question what she is doing at that very minute. There are times that I wonder what she would say about things like, the little house Jerry and I want to move into or the grades I am getting. I go to weddings and can't help but think how hard it will be for me to get married without my mom, in fact sometimes just thinking about having a wedding ceremony makes me consider not having one, because I know it will be so emotional...yet I still want one. I think about my mom when I am buying stuff for my soon-to-be niece Kimber. She would be so stinkin' excited about it.

I think about her everyday. And it's days like today, that I wish she was here so we could just talk, or for her to give me a hug and kiss me on my forehead. I wish she was here to tell me what Stanley and B were doing. I miss her.

While I was in France, my mom wrote me this message. I found it today, it sure is special.

Hi Colie
I am at work and I downloaded incredimail so when you e-mail me today I will get an instant message so I can e-mail you back so watch for my reply. We had Easter Dinner at Richards it was good just the Grandma and the son were there no Dee. B & Stanley slept outside last night. It is going to be over 50 degrees here today! You should get some perfume for Dad he is all out. Well have you been sleeping in your own bed? Or who do you share with. How is the food? Bring me a decoration. Love you lots!
MOMClick Me!

This was dinner right after I got home from France. She was so excited for me to be home. It was the most time that we had ever spent apart.
I miss her.

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Sunday, April 11, 2010

Every Dog Has His Day.

And I'm hoping our day is tomorrow.

A few weeks ago, Jerry and I got this fortune, in our fortune cookie, of course. Yes, we got the exact same fortune. Coincidence? I don't think so. Because well, sometimes I'm a little superstitious. Or maybe it's just that I have enough faith in God (and my mom), to believe that they would send me a little reminder, not to give up.

And I'm not giving up, nope. Not one single bit has my faith subsided. I still believe, with all my heart that, things have a way of working them selves out. With a little faith, prayer and perseverance, Jerry and I will get our little house, we will get a job, and we will pay for our college without student loans. It'll happen.

I hope tomorrow is our day. Jerry is suppose to call Henry Day Ford to see if he has the job. I'm expecting a call from the Timbermine, and tomorrow night, we have a meeting with the Land Lord of the little house to pay the deposit. Oh, I hope it's OUR little house!

If you find yourself struggling through something, and your on the verge of giving up, I want you to know, that everything has a way of working it's self out. Life is not out to get you. It will happen, give it some time, give it a little prayer. Have a little faith.

"Focus on your long term goal. Good things will soon happen."

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Saturday, April 10, 2010

Bad Day!

Yesterday, Jerry woke up around 7, to shower and go to work. He works a full day on Fridays because he doesn't have school. I got up around 8, to take a shower and get ready for school. At around 8:15, I text him to tell him to have a good day at work and that I loved him. He said something like, I love you too. Apparently there was a meeting yesterday and the new boss told everyone how he doesn't like me. So I asked him a little about it, and then he said, I guess he is firing me. To go back a little real quick, on Thursday, Jerry and I, turned in applications and paid a fee to get a credit and criminal background check. Anyway, so when I heard that he was getting fired, I was kind of upset, because we had put on the application that he had this job. Anyway, Jerry was upset, and left to go to get this mom's car so that he could take his tool box home. As he was on the interstate his car broke down. He called me, but he was so angry that I couldn't understand what he was saying. Finally, I got it all figured out. But I was still mad so I just told him that I had to go to class, and I got off the phone. A few minutes later I decided to skip class, and try to help him out. So I called him, and he said that he, got his car to start back up, and drove back to the shop, of the job he had just lost. He found that his catalyk converter, was broken and needed to be replaced. For a mere $500. :O The part will be here on Monday. Because it was Friday night, we had plans to drive back to Evanston to hang out with our families. Thankfully, Jerry's mom came to pick us up. We got back to Evanston, and I got a call from the Land Lord, of the house we are trying to rent, she told me that our background and credit was approved. But then, she said to me, "I just called the Timbermine, and they said you don't work there yet." I had an interview on Tuesday with the Timbermine, and they told me that they would call me with a schedule this week. I figured that meant I had the job?! So the Landlord, told me that it was okay, but that I would need to get her my first pay check stub when I got one. I agreed, and we hung up. But I felt horrible, like she thought I was a liar. We set up a date to pay the deposit for Monday. So Jerry and I went to Wal-Mart to pick up a wedding present, and while we were there, Jerry got a call from the Land Lord, and she said that she had called Jerry's work, and they said that he doesn't work there anymore. Jerry explained to her that, he no longer worked there, but that he had a job interview at Henry Day Ford on Thursday. Ay, ay, ay. The lady probably thinks we are liars, and cheats. And the truth is, we didn't lie once. It was just a sucky day all around yesterday.

So today, Jerry and I both had some school stuff to get done. I had to do a highway clean up in Morgan, and I got up at 7 to leave. I went out to my car and ............It won't start.

Maybe I'll just go back to bed.

However, whenever I have a bad day, I always try to remember that no matter how bad my day is, there is always someone who is having a worst day. Maybe Jerry lost his job, but there is someone out there that lost their job with a wife and kids. Even though the lady may think were liars, somewhere in the world, someone is being killed for false accusations. Even though Jerry's car broke down, someone out there has never even been given the chance to ride in a car. There are people with deadly diseases, lost hope and no food to eat. There are unfortunate people out there that live their lives in fear and others that live in poverty. No matter how bad my day may seem, I should be forever thankful for the blessings I have in my life.

And today,

I'm thankful that Jerry's car is repairable.

I'm thankful that the land lord is giving us a chance.

I am thankful that Jerry had that job interview Thursday, and the job looks promising.

I am thankful that I live where I do.

I am thankful for my dad, Penny, Jeff, Teresa, Bart and Rani, who help us through everyday.

I am thankful for the sun that is out today.

I am thankful that my best friends, Katie and Baillie are in town.

And most of all, and always, I am thankful for my beautiful guardian angel in Heaven, my mom. I know she watches me through every trial in my life, and leads me through my day.

Happy Saturday Everyone!

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Monday, April 5, 2010

A Dog Food Factory

Jerry and I have had quite the stressful day.

Apartments just don't call you up on the phone and say, "Hi, my price is low, the space is big, I include a washer and dryer, I'm clean and you're going to love me!" Unfourtunately, that has not happened and won't happen. So, we continue to look.

I called this lady, that has a few different small houses that have been turned into apartments, I emailed her once and she said to call to make an appointment to go look at them. I've called 3 times, each time I have left a message, and she still hasn't called me back. What kind of customer service is that? ugh.

We have an appointment to go look at an apartment in Layton Wednesday. Can't wait!

Anyway, let's move on.

It rained....ALL DAY!

And now, it's a blizzard outside, it's already put down probably 3 inches of snow. R.i.d.i.c.u.l.o.u.s.

So much for those new summer dresses I bought.

Now on to the positives of the day:

*Jerry thinks it's quite funny when I make up my own words while singing. I think I do pretty good. :)

* So at our dorm, the basement floor ALWAYS stinks! I mean, come on, it's the guys floor, of course it stinks. There's always an array of smells, including food, body odors, puke, you name it, they've got the smell there. And food! Maybe some guy really got desperate and found that dog food is much cheaper than Top Ramen. Who knows? Anyway, this is how the conversation between Jerry and I went:

Me: Smells like dog food.

Jerry: Maybe someone works at the Dog Food Factory.

Me: haha. Dog Food Factory?

Jerry: Yes, the Dog Food Factory.

Me: You're a liar.

Jerry: No, I'm not, there's a Dog Food Factory downtown.

Me: Whatever, psh Dog Food Factory. (laughing)

So we get up stairs, and Jerry, of course has to prove me wrong by asking my room mate Tiffany if there was a Dog Food Factory in Ogden?

And you know what? Sure enough there is! Seriously, that's why Ogden always smells like Dog Food? I just thought it was the Taco Stands. haha. Maybe I could get a job at the Dog Food Factory?

*Only 9 more days of school!!! Then Finals week! YAY!

*But with that comes finals, presentations, homework & extra credit.

*I just wish that I could find a job, but soon enough, soon enough.

* I registered for Summer classes, I will be going full-time. 12 credit hours. Luckily they are pretty short, and I will only be in 2 classes at a time. :)

Happy Monday, my friends

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Sunday, April 4, 2010

Happy Easter

I hope that your Easter included,
Some Colored Eggs
Loving Family
Peace in your Heart
Thankfulness for the blessings from God
A good nap
A yummy ham
A cute cake shaped like a bunny
And the reminder of the most important things in life.

Mine definitely included it all!
Happy Easter Everyone!

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Thursday, April 1, 2010

I just haven't been in the mood.

Blogging, just hasn't been on my mind lately. I have been b.u.s.y.

I haven't been in the mood, the blogging mood.

Let me tell you what I have been up to lately.

I have been filling out 120948302 applications. I need a job. Bad.

I have been looking at apartments everywhere. Online. On the streets. In my head. I just want one to call my own. I want Jerry and I to have our very own place together.

I have been going to school. Doing homework. Planning my next semester. Debating what classes to take this summer.

It snowed all stinkin' day yesterday. I don't think it stopped for one minute. Quite ridiculous Spring!

Jerry bought me the most beautiful roses, just because. :) I am one lucky girl!

The wind shield in Jerry's car broke.

Jerry's alternator went out in his car today. I was tutoring, as I do every Thursday. And as I was walking out in the parking lot, looking for Jerry to pick me up, I got a message that said, "My car broke down." Grrrreeaaaaaaaaat. He was at 26th and Wall, I was at 22nd and Grant. So I started walking. It was freezing cold, and I didn't have a coat on. Not to mention, there are homeless people roaming, a million cars and well, snow. Right about the time I got to 25th and Grant, Jerry called to tell me that he thought he had ran out of gas, and that a tow truck brought him some, and he would follow him to the gas station. So I continued to walk, and waited for Jerry to come pick me up. I got to the Union station which is at 25th and Wall, and decided to stop there. Finally Jerry came to pick me up. We began to drive to his work, and the car once again broke down. So he called work and asked a friend to come give us a jump start so that we could make it to his work. As we waited, Jerry decided to start the car again, and we made it to his work. He found out that his alternator was bad and he would have to change it. To make a long story short. He got an new alternator, and the car is now working!

A boy at the Elementary school today told me, "You're not old enough to give detention," when I asked him to complete his assignment. Oh boy.

I made the invitations for my sister's baby shower, and got addresses ready. :) By the way, if you would like to come, please get me your address!

So, 2 more weeks of school after tomorrow. We have to move out of our dorms in 3 weeks, and we still don't have a place to move in. But we're working on it.

I hope that you have had an amazing April Fool's Day! But I hope the joke wasn't on you, when the car broke down and you had to walk. ;)

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