Wednesday, December 30, 2009

There is a God

I have been wanting to post about Christmas. Because it was so very special this year. But it will have to wait until next week or so when I can include some pictures. :)
As for now, I just want to share some thoughts.

Jerry and I went to Big Piney yesterday to visit my Grandma and Grandpa. Last week something told me that I really needed to go see them, so I scheduled a day off and we went.

They are doing good. My grandma made a delicious lunch. We talked and talked and talked. She made me laugh, that Grandma of mine, she is just so....perfect. My Aunt Amy was there, she has down syndrome, but none the less she is perfectly, happy and content. She could really lift anyones' spirit. I just love her!

We finished off the night having dinner at my uncle John's. We watched a movie that my cousin Seth made, played some Wii bowling, and chatted with my aunt Kim!

It was such a good time, and I am so so glad that we went.

While we were driving home the song 'There is a God' by Lee Ann Womack came on, and it really got me thinking.

As I grew up, I always knew there was a God, mostly because my parents told me so. I went to CCD Sunday school classes at Church, and I learned more and more about God. I memorized prayers and read the bible, and I still do to this day. But more than ever I am seeing God through my life, through my experiences.

There is a part of the song that goes like this,

Stop and think about what you don't understand. Things like life and love and how the world began. Hear the doctor say he can't explain it. But the cancer is gone.

I have often thought about how the world began. I have thought many times about how we were given the chance to live on earth. And the only way to possibly explain it is through, God. It is amazing the love and compassion we can feel for one another. It is unbelievable how miracles happen. We have one crisis after another, and still everything is okay. We can pray and lives can be changed. Some ignore God, and lives are changed in that way too.

I have no doubt in my mind that there is a God.

Call it my testimony.

Call it my belief.

Call it whatever you may like, I just hope God is found in your life too.

There was a rainbow over my house on the day of my mom's funeral.

My Grandma and Aunt Roberta also saw a rainbow on their way home from the funeral.

I couldn't ask for anymore proof that my mom met Jesus at the gates of Heaven on November 10, 2008.

I know a few people who are so filled with the Holy Spirit that you can feel it just being around them.

My Grandma Helena and Grandpa Bob never miss a day of Church. They recite the Rosary while in the car to insure their safety. They pray all.the.time. They are living a life through God, and I have no doubt their lives are very fulfilling. They are such special people.

Another person is my God Mother, Debbie. She is the prettiest, most sincere, sensitive person I know. She has the softest, truest voice. Someday I hope to be just like her. :)

This year as my New Year's resolution, I want to make sure I go to church every Sunday. I come up with excuses like being tired, having too many things to do and things like that. But those are lousy excuses, I know.

I want to become a better person.

I know there is a God.

On that note, I have prayer request.

Jerry's Grandma was diagnosed with Kidney Disease in early 2009. She has been going through Dialysis. She found a kidney donor, but soon after they found a blood clot in her leg. Before the transplant could be done, the blood clot needed to be cleared up. The blood clot cleared up and January 5th was the date set for her the receive her new kidney. For whatever reason a few weeks ago we found out that the man who agreed to donate his kidney could no longer donate. She was devastated. (do you blame her?) On Christmas day she got up and was having a hard time breathing, she called 911, and they took her to the hospital. A cat scan showed that she had 7 blood clots in her lungs. She was taken to LDS Hospital in Salt Lake, there she can receive dialysis, and treatment for her blood clots. Would you please pray for her? Please pray that there will be no more blood clots. Please pray that she will become healthy in 2010. Pray that she will live a long life. Please pray that someone steps forward to donate their kidney.

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Wednesday, December 23, 2009

There is no greater blessing than having you by my side along the way.

I know by now that our experiences...the good...and the bad make us the person we are. I do believe in God, and I am thankful that through him all things are possible. However, I do know that we have control over our life. We should never enable anything else..or anyone else for that matter to take control. Let us be rely on someone else shows weakness. The need for drugs and alcohol shows addiction. I get tired of seeing so many people who are unhappy with their life dwell within their sorrow. As if feeling sorry for yourself will magically make everyone cater to you. If you're not happy with your life, change it.

This is our one and only life. Life isn't something that should be taken for granted. When all is said and done, I don't want to be the person that felt sorry for myself my whole life. I don't want to be the person that was dependent on everyone and everything. I want to be the person, who strived to be her best. The person who helped others help them self. I want to be the person that can make you happy.

At the start of the new year, I think we should all strive to be better.

I am confident in myself, I can do this without you, but there is no greater blessing than having you by my side along the way. I am loyal, and I will never leave you behind. I am honest, hardworking, and I love you. All of you. This Christmas, remember those who have blessed you in the past, but never forget those who continue to bless you with their presence today. Be thankful for Jesus Christ, whom gave up his life for us.

Through him all things are possible.

Merry Christmas Everyone!

For attractive lips, speak words of kindness. For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people. For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry. For poise, walk with the knowledge that you will never be alone. People, even more than things have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed. Never throw out anyone. [Audrey Hepburn]

Tuesday, December 22, 2009


This morning as I got ready for work my dad said, "Cole you spent too much money." I was confused and asked why. He continued to tell me that I spent too much money on Christmas presents. But I would have to say that I don't agree. How often do I have an excuse to often do I have an excuse to buy something nice for often can I truly spend money on something other than school and not feel completely guilty about it?
Christmas time...that's when!
The truth is, what is the point of having money if you're never going to spend it? Besides, I much rather spend it on someone else than myself. Anddddd, the whole reason I decided to work during Christmas break was so that I could make some Christmas money.
I know that someday I won't have the opportunity to buy gifts for the people I love. I am always seeing gifts that I would love to buy my mom, I just simply can't.
I make money to spend money.
And that's the way I like it.
And next week, when I have to pay my tuition, I will then tell myself, "Someday this will pay it's self off." But until then College remains as a endless black hole in my savings account.
Let's consider all this money I'm spending as a community service. Maybe I can boost the economy eh?

Friday, December 18, 2009

It's the most wonderful time of the year!

Last night Jerry and I went Christmas shopping! Oh I love to shop, especially for other people! I can't wait to wrap up everything...even more I can't wait until everyone opens their gifts from me. :) I wish that I was rich so that I could give everyone something....everyone! I just think it would be so cool. But gifts isn't what Christmas is about, and I understand that. So along with everyone's Christmas gift, I want them to know that I love them, that I will always be there for them, and that I would do anything to make their life a little easier. I wish that I could take the load off everyone's shoulders...just for a day, that's the Christmas gift I really want to I think I will truely try. This new year I want to work toward helping others, if I could just let some one breathe easier for a one day, if I could just help someone relieve some stress, if I could help them improve their life overall...I want to do it!

I have really been wanting to volunteer at the soup kitchen in Ogden. And when I go back to school, I am going to! I have every Thursday off from school, so I think I am going to go there on those days. I just think it would be really rewarding.

Hmmm. Well.....

-Tomorrow I am *making* most of my Christmas presents. This will be the first time I have made the majority of the presents I am giving. I will post pictures after Christmas, I hope they all turn out!

-Katie and I are going to make Cookies on Sunday. I can't wait.

-Jerry and I are thinking about going ice skating Tomorrow night!!

-It's Friday!! Woo hoo!

-Only one week until Christmas!

For the spirit of Christmas fulfils the greatest hunger of mankind. ~Loring A. Schuler

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

There's no place like home.

It's been a while since I've posted.'s not because I don't have anything thing to post.'s not because nothing special has happened.'s not because I haven't had time.
It's just simply because I've had better things to do. :)
Let me catch you up.
*On December 9th Jerry and I celebrated 3 years together. That very same day we saw a reindeer (Yes, a real one...he was with Santa..duh), we took our last final (Thank Goodness!) and we headed home for a much needed month long break! Oh yeah!
*We have spent our break so far with everyone! We have played a little poker. We threw a surprise party for my very best friend Miss Katie. We made a ginger bread house with Maddie (what a huge mess). I've cuddled with my Stanley and Oliver B. and they are so very glad that I am home if I do say so myself. :) We went to Kobie's Christmas Choir concert. I had lunch with old friends...he worked on Taylor's car. And I have started working at the Court House for the next month so that I can earn some much needed Christmas cash.
*Most importantly, I've gotten to spend extra time with my sweet Dad, and Penny too!
*Andddddd Thursday, Jerry and I are going to Salt Lake for some Christmas shopping. Yay! Can't wait.
Miss Katie and I are going to make some cookies and deliver them to all our closest friends!!
Oh man! I love Christmas time!!
It just can't get any better than this!

Sunday, December 6, 2009

It's beginning to look a lot like Chistmas!

Friday Jerry and I went to Salt Lake to go to Modern Display before heading home. It is such a cool store!! They have the prettiest Christmas decorations and lights!! We bought some and then headed home. Once we got home, Jerry and I decorated my mom's grave. It turned out so pretty, but I would still like to get some solar powered lights to put up...we haven't been able to find any yet.

We ate dinner with Bart, Rani, Tayler and her boyfriend. Played a little poker and then we went to my cousins GED graduation. He was the Salvadorian, and we are very proud of him.
After the graduation we went back to Bart and Rani's for some more poker. I won one round and Rani won the rest!
My dad had asked me earlier that day to make something for the V.F.W bake sale that was going to be on Saturday. I didn't get home till around one in the morning and I began baking. I made way more than I had ever planned. I made Lemon Poppy Seed Muffins, Giant Honey CornBread Muffins and Jalapeno Corn Bread Muffins. I felt it was for a good cause, and I hope it helped them out some.
Saturday, my dad, Penny and I went up in the mountains to cut down a Christmas Tree. We walked FOREVER! Finally we found a giant beautiful tree. My dad wasted no time, and soon enough we were back at the truck and loading up the tree. We ate lunch together and then headed home to decorate!
My mom and I use to decorate the inside while my dad decorated the outside. Last year my friend Katie helped me decorate the was such a hard time for me, I think that Christmas just happened to be my rebellion against my mom's death. I decorated the tree with red lights, even though my mom and I had been decorating our tree with purple lights for the last ten years. I hated the tree last year.!
This year, I decorated the inside for the most part alone. I wanted to make it exactly the way my mom did. I put so many lights on the tree, I wanted it to be perfect. I hung all ornaments and put bows on the ends of the branches. I think it turned out so beautiful. But, it was hard! I cried while decorating the tree alone, because it use to be such a special time for my mom and I. Finally Jerry came over and helped me decorate everything else. I began putting all of our special Christmas decorations on to the mantle, and began hanging some stringed pine cones that my mom always had on the mantle. Somehow the pine cones pulled everything else off the mantle, and it all came crashing down. Glass flew everywhere, and I tried so hard to hold my tears in. Luckily only two things broke. But it killed me inside as my mom's precious decorations broke. One of the items was a mouse sitting in front a fire place that had a candle holder in the back, it shattered in a million pieces. I picked up all the pieces and put it back together in hopes that I could super glue it back together. The other was a Santa music box and it broke in three pieces and it will easily be glued back together. This morning my dad threw away all of the broken pieces to the mouse and the fireplace, he told me there is no way we could possibly glue all of the pieces back together. I was heart broken. Jerry was so sweet, and told me he would fix the Santa music box. Jerry also helped me by decorating the stairway railing. He spent a lot of time on it and it turned out very pretty.
Even Stanley was in the Christmas mood. He loved this tiny stocking
The railing, the tree and the mantle.
Pretty Tree and Mickey and Minne!
Today, my dad, Penny, Maddie (Penny's daughter), Jerry and I all ate a big breakfast and dinner together. I am so thankful to have them in my life. I couldn't possibly make it without them. We also put up some more decorations outside and it was a freezing five degrees!!! So cold!! This is the last week of school before Christmas break. I have two finals, and then I am home free! I can't wait. Wish me luck on my math and political science finals. I can't wait to be home with my dad and to celebrate Christmas with everyone who means so much to me! I will be working at the court house over the break, that'll be fun! I hope Christmas is showing up at your house. Tonight it is about 10 degrees in Ogden and the snow will be here soon! :)

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Comical Relief During Finals Week!

What would I do without him?
Jerry Playing the Air Guitar and singing.