Thankful Thursday

*I am so thankful to have Jerry at Weber with me. It is so much easier being away from having him with me.

*I am thankful for my roommates. I am so grateful that they help keep the apartment clean and a nice place to be. They are amazing girls, and I am so glad I have them as a a part of my life.

*I am thankful to have Baillie to give me a relaxing pedicure. :) And to give Jerry a cute (short) hair cut.

*I am thankful for Katie, who calls me to tell me she misses me and that she loves me. Who could ask for a better best friend? I sure do miss her too.

*I am so very thankful for this life that I have been given and a God to lead me through it. A couple things have been tough for me this week, but eventually I know it will be okay.

*My Environmental Appreciation teacher told us today, crying, that his wife died six weeks ago from cancer. It made me cry, but helped realize that my dad and I aren't the only ones going through the pain of a loss. It also made me think:

When he told us that it had been six weeks since his wife died, I thought about how I felt six weeks after my mom died. And I know that at that point, I didn't want it to be real. I kept thinking of ways I could have stopped it if I could just go back in time. I didn't want to move forward, but I had no choice. Life was still going on around me. And everything else in the world was moving forward. Everyone says, "move on." But at this point I still don't feel ready to move on. I can't help but think of my mom everyday. I miss her so much. Although I don't cry as often, I find myself with a huge lump in my throat holding the tears in. Out of embarrassment, I don't cry in front of anyone but Jerry. I am thankful to have him to cry to. I hope that my teacher has someone that he finds comfort in. I will keep my teacher in my prayers.

*My dad seemed so sad today. So down in the dumps. I hate that there is nothing I can say to make him feel better. I can't just bring another women in his life to replace my mom, and in no way do I want to replace my mom. It isn't possible. She is the most amazing person I have ever met. She could always bring a smile to my face. Oh how I miss her so much. Luckily I will be home again with my dad for the three day weekend soon, and for that I am thankful..

*Rani let me know today that she had a doctors appointment, and her new diet has improved her health. No diabetic worries anymore. :) I am thankful to have a healthy *fill-in mom again. :)

*I am thankful to have a three day weekend ahead. :)

Remember, everything happens for a reason.