The worst nights sleep ever.

Last night, I could not sleep....for the life of me.

I tossed and turned, and rotated my pillow. I tried sleeping close to Jerry, and on the edge of the bed. I listened to the music that was playing, and I tried to ignore it. But nothing I did seemed to work. I began thinking of my mom, and cried a little. I just kept thinking about the things in life that I wish she was here to experience with me. I prayed, for my dad, for my future, and for Jerry, Penny, Jessica, Jay and baby Kimber too. I asked my mom to give me a hug, as I have many times before. I thought a lot about work, and money, and school and life.

I kept thinking, everyday, for five days, Jerry and I...

Wake up, shower, brush our teeth, drive to work, work, drive home from work, eat dinner, watch tv, and go to bed.

Some days we add in some laundry, or dishes or a drive around town. But overall, we work, we work so that we can live. However, I don't think we should live to work.

I know that for many many reasons, work is crucial in our life. It is important to learn to work hard and to work hard for the things we want most in life. It is important to work, to support our self, and our family. However, I just feel that there is more to life than working. I'm not saying, "Quit your job, you're wasting your time." I'm just saying, if we are going to spend 5/7ths of our week doing something, let's make it something worth while. Yes, I do think I will graduate from college. :)

So, every once in a while, I write a blog, I think, "Man, how stupid. Maybe I should just delete that, and forget it." And that's how I feel tonight. But, for tonight, I'll post.

Oh, and to finish off my sleepless night, Jerry has a horrible, annoying, consistent, hacking, cough. And so, for those moments, when my mind wasn't running, he was coughing. ay.ay.ay

In other news:

*My dad and I are leaving for Jackson, WY to welcome baby Kimber on Wednesday. I just can't wait!

*It looks like rain out. :) I love that!

*Jerry and I only have about a month until Fall semester starts, crazy? Yes.

Well, I guess I just don't have much to say, or at least not as much as I had thought. And not even any pictures. Should I even post....

I hope that you have the best night's sleep tonight. Good night my friends!

Happy Wednesday!

So, remember this Lady???

*Her due date is July 24. So we have been waiting, and waiting.....and still more waiting.

She had an appointment today. They decided that if the baby doesn't come by next Wednesday, my sister sue will be induced next Wednesday at 5 pm! Yahoo! I can't wait for my little niece to get here.

[[May you follow your dreams and always believe in yourself, keep your eyes on the stars, and hope in your heart.]]

*When I was a freshman in college, my mom came to visit one day, and decided that my little dorm needed a little life! So she bought me the cutest little plant. About six months, I re-potted it, because it was growing so big. And I decided to leave the plant at my house in Evanston, because it was too big for my dorm. Well, about a week and a half ago, I looked at the plant, it this is how it looked. :( I was heart broken. This is the plant my mom gave me. Plants can live forever if taken care of properly, and I had every intention to keep it alive...forever. But look at it? I re-potted it again today. I gave it some plant food, oh how I hope it makes a come back! Rani tells me it needs some TLC, and tender loving care it will get!

[[A memory is a way of holding on to the things you love, the things you are, and the things you never want to lose.]]

*I chipped my tooth last Friday, while at the movie theater, eating a life saver. Today it was fixed!! Hallelujah!!

[[May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy.]]

*It was a beautiful night tonight in Ogden!

[[The happiest people don't have the best of everything. They just make the best of everything.]]

Welcome to our house!

I have been meaning to post pictures of our little house for a while now. So here it is. We live up behind another house, our drive way is steep and this is the view from the drive way.

I took this picture tonight. This is the front door, and my little flower garden. :) I made the wreath on the door today too. :) Oh and Jer's cute little BBQ.

This is the flower garden to the left of the front door. :)

This is a view from the side of the house, the entire house is surrounded by plants. That's what I love most!

This is the heater, ha. I was a little bummed about this 'eye sore', but I think it looks okay, in the plant camo. ;)

This is our cute little kitchen table. There really is no real dining area, so we put the table in the corner of the living room. One of my favorite things about having my own house is getting fresh flowers to put on the table. :)

This is our living room. Bart and Rani bought us the couch, and my dad gave us the

TV.

This is our bed room. We bought the shelves next to the bed for $15 each at Wal Mart, what a deal huh!

This is another view of the living room, from the kitchen. :)

This is the view of the kitchen from the living room.

Although the house is really old, the kitchen was newly remodeled.

My absolute favorite thing about this house is the garden. There is so much growing and so much that I have never seen grow in my entire life. This is a picture of the blueberry bush. I took the picture in the dark, so it's not the best.

These are green grapes. They are everywhere. We could each a bunch of grapes everyday until Winter and we would never run out.

These are peaches! I can't wait until they are ready to eat. :)

These are raspberries. I ate one today and it was soooo good!

Jerry planted two tomato plants. This was our first tomato to sprout now we have about 6.

Jerry also planted jalapeños. This one is almost ready!

Well, that's it. It's a tiny house, but we don't need anything big. I am proud of this little house. I love everything about it. The entire drive way and house is surrounded by trees. We even have a few apple trees. This is a view of a sun set. Isn't it beautiful?

Three Year Olds

Today I was in the 3 year old classroom....ALL DAY!

Forget Terrible Twos.

The three year olds have something about them. They are stinkin' cute! They're cuddly. And they say the cutest things!

BUT, when you get more than one of them together, all a sudden they turn into little monsters!

And they're smart. They know how to manipulate, they know how to annoy and they most definitely know how to get revenge.

Just imagine if we all live our lives the way three year olds do.

We would hit, kick, scream, spit and cry to get what we want.

When we are asked to take a time out, for a tiny 3 minutes, we will throw our self on the floor and then throw the chair that we are placed on.

We would fight sleep, even when our eyes couldn't possibly stay open another minute. We will then insist that in order to sleep we need our shoes, cup, favorite blanket, stuffed animal, latest art project, socks, hair ribbons and a random fork at our side.

When we don't get the toy we want to play with we will find the person with the toy that we want and we will hit them, bite them, kick them and spit on them.

We would gargle our milk at meal time, and dunk all food in milk before eating it.

We would play in the toilets, sinks and any other forbidden thing we could reach.

We would always be saying, "Teacher 'so&so' just hit me."

In order to get revenge we would tell our friends, "Get him!", and point out the victim.

Because honestly, that is how three olds act, when they are in groups of 5 or more at daycare.

Some days, like today, they push me right to edge, and then I think, what the heck? I love kids, why are they making me so crazy.

But at the end of the day, when my shift is over and they come to hug me good bye, I forget all the things that irritated me. And I still love them....

So please, don't act a three year eh?

A day on the boat...

If only the entire world had a boat...

So that the entire world could spend time in a confined space with the people they love most.

So that the entire world could enjoy the beauty of God's creation.

So that the entire world could sit, and reflect.

If the entire world had a boat, maybe we would be in slightly better shape. ;)

Because, my family has a boat...

We spend time, laughing without a care in the world.

It's a chance to forget anything that has worried us, the days, weeks, months and years before.

It's a chance to get to know each other, on another level.

It's a chance to just let go, to be free, to jump in.

Happy Thursday my friends!

Go Boating!!

Happy Birthday To My Sweet Momma!

Today started out normal, because after all it is just another day.

But is it? I mean, 52 years ago today, my momma was born. And that day changed my life, of course, because if she wasn't born I wouldn't have been either. But she changed my life in so many more ways than just that.

She was my best friend, she was my advocate, she listened and believed in me. She taught me to love, she taught me to cook, she made me who I am. She was my mom. I'm not sure that anyone will ever understand me the way she does. She truly cherished everyday. She always let me know that she loved me. She could always make me laugh. I have never been so close to anyone else in my life, and I probably never will be.

But just because she has left my this earth, she isn't out of my world, she isn't out of my life, and she most definitely isn't out of my thoughts. I know exactly how she would respond to every situation, I guess that just comes from knowing her so well. I still talk to her daily, I still feel her, and I still learn from her. I still have the best memories to cherish.

If I were to ask God to explain, maybe he would say, "I needed her more." "I gave you a life time worth of memories in 19 years." or maybe he would say, "You will see her again some day, and it will be as if she never left." I much more believe in the third possibility.

The fact is, she is not physically here, I have come to accept that, as hard as it was. But I know, that her spirit is never far. And I feel peace knowing that.

I was so lucky to have my sweet Mom on this earth with me for 19 years. And forever in my heart.

Happy birthday sweet mom! You are the most beautiful angel, the most perfect mom, and the worlds best friend. Thank you for all that you have given me.

To celebrate her birthday I will be making stuffed bell peppers for dinner. She taught me how to make them. :D

**Proof she's here: Today while I was coming from work on my break, my radio wouldn't work. So I pushed play on my CD player, I never listen to it, because I always have the radio on, I don't even know the last time I listened to a CD. Anyway, I pushed play, and loudly, John Mayer began playing. My mom and I LOVE John Mayer. I can remember the first time we heard the song, we were on our way to Salt Lake. But they didn't say who the song was by, a few days later, my mom heard the song again, and she called the radio station to see who the artist was. What are the chances that my radio wouldn't work, on her birthday, and that John Mayer was in the CD player? She was there.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!

As the tulips bloom, the birds chirp, the fresh air blows ...

There are millions of reason why I love Summer time.

As I drove to Ogden the other day, I thought, no wonder God created seasons. He created them so that we could appreciate the change. I always love summer after a cold long winter, but after Summer, I get anxious for Fall and a snowy Winter. It's a fresh start, it's a new portrait, it's a makeover, it's a new beginning, and we are forever reminded to appreciate all that we have been given.

I love it when the mountains are covered in snow, yet the hills below are covered in fresh green grass.

I love painting my toe nails and wearing flip flops!

I love eating ice cream on a hot day!

I am thankful that I can decorate my Mom's grave with beautiful flowers, and spend time alone with her, talking, in the beautiful sun.

I love the baby animals that are scattered along the country side.

I love the fresh breeze that blows through my window on the days that it is warm enough to roll down the windows.

I love planting a garden and watching it grow.

I love sitting on the porch and enjoying the company of those I love most.

I am thankful for this beautiful season.

I love the blooming plants, flowers, grass and tress.

I am thankful for the colorful sunsets, that remind me of my beautiful momma.

I am thankful for the rain followed by rainbows and the fresh smell of the wet dirt.

I hope that you are enjoying your summer as much as I am enjoying mine.

Jerry just said to me, "Let's go." I asked, "Where?" He said, "I have reservations for dinner."

I know what you're thinking.....what a sweet guy.

Unfortunately, he then said, "Just kidding." Rude huh? He just tried using that little trick to get my on the computer faster. Ha! I think he owes me dinner, don't you?