Four Years

Jerry and I have been dating for four years today.

The time has gone by fairly fast, although at times it seems as though it has been forever.

We spent 5 months in High school dating. 1 year, he was in Rock Springs, while I was still in high school. The next year he was in Rock Springs, while I was at Weber. The year after that we went to Weber together, and for the last 9 months, we have lived together in a tiny house.

My love for him has never subsided, in fact I know that it has grown everyday since day one.

I love the time that we get to spend together and just talk about our day. He never leaves a detail out, about what he did at work each day. He continues to tell me about the work that he does on cars, even though he knows I don't understand.

He questions me about the cars that we pass on the road, and when I get one right he always says, 'Good work.'

He never fails to tell me good luck before a test, and tell me, 'I knew you'd do good,' when I tell him my score.

He always remembers to give me [[3]] kisses before we fall asleep, and he gives me more, when I think it's necessary. :)

He never questions the crazy things that I want to do in my life.

And he puts up with my crazy cleaning routine, in which I believe you should always dust BEFORE you vacuum, even though he insists on vacuuming first.

He let me put up our Christmas tree before Thanksgiving.

He doesn't get mad when the house becomes a disaster when I do all my crafts.

He loves to tickle me, especially when I'm laughing too hard to tell him to stop.

He's a picky eater, but when he finds something that he likes, he eats it a lot.

He would eat popcorn every night, if I let him. And if we had a bigger house, that he could chomp on popcorn without me hearing, I would let him. :)

He is a hard worker, he is smart and he is always willing to help out other people.

He loves to be with kids, almost as much as I do. ;)

He hangs Maddie over the edge, and teases her, and she teases him in return.

And he has really taken a liking to his role as 'uncle Jers'.

My mom loved Jerry too, and that is one more thing that makes our relationship very special to me. He has helped me out through so many things, and he has never once complained.

He is so special to me, he always texts me to tell me that he loves me, at least 3 times a day. He helps cook dinner and hangs lights on our house for Christmas.

He is absolutely, the best boyfriend that I could ever possibly ask for. <3

Smile Because She Lived

Sometimes it seems as if it were yesterday, when I think back to that elevator ride when my dad told me that my mom had passed away within the night.

It seems like yesterday when I had the huge lump in my throat, looking at caskets at the funeral home.

The funeral, viewing and rosary, seem only minutes ago.

But then I think back to the last day that I spent with my sweet mom, we got our nails done, went to the store, and made dinner together, it seems as if it were many years ago...much more than just two.

I think back to our last conversation, our last hug, our last 'I love you.'

We have so many memories together, many more than most mothers and daughters can claim.

I can remember lessons she taught me, I can remember gifts she gave me, and I can remember the never ending love, that I can still feel to this day.

There are so many times, that I just wish that my mom was with me. I just want to show her things, I want to have her help me with things, and I want her to see the things that I have achieved.

I want her to see me graduate college, get married and have kids. I want her to see Kimber grow up, though I know she will be with me through it all. I just wish she was here.

I miss her a lot, so much everyday! I talk to her, and I ask her for help. I just wish that I could call her up on the phone. Oh I can just imagine all the things I would tell her.

As my dad and I were at church on Sunday, it seemed as though Father Bueno was preaching directly to us, as the entire service was about life after death. At one point he read, "He is not God of the dead, for to him, everyone is living." And to me, my mom is still alive, she is just so much father away than the other side of the world.

Sometimes, I still resort back to the thoughts that this isn't real, and maybe she is just hiding, and or on vacation. Some days it's easier to feel sorry for my self and to think that life is just not fair.

But I know that all things happen for a reason. And If God brings you to it...He will bring you through it.

But at times, this journey is more than just making it through it. Sometimes it is about helping others, and letting others know that they are not alone. Sometimes losing a life is about more than just missing them, it is about their journey to heaven. I know that someday I will be reunited with me mom. And I can't wait for the day that I can hug her again. The day that she will make me laugh again.

Life is so short, and you never know when you might lose your best friend. If I can give you any advice today, tell your mom you love her, call you mom....right now. Visit as often as you can and make sure that they know just how much they mean to you.

"You can shed tears that she is gone,

or you can smile because she has lived.

You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back

or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.

Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,

or you can be full of the love you shared.

You can remember her only that she is gone,

or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.

You can cry and close your mind,

be empty and turn your back.

Or you can do what she'd want:

smile, open your eyes, love and go on."

-David Harkins

Christmas

I have been getting really excited for Thanksgiving and Christmas lately.

I even started listening to Christmas music today. =]

I have decided that this year for Christmas, I am going to make all of the gifts that I will be giving away.

I think that it will be fun, not to mention cheaper. Besides that, I think that the stuff I make, usually turns out better than things you can find in the stores, and because it's from the heart, it means more to the recipient.

I will try to keep you updated with the gifts as I make them. But some of them, I won't be able to share until after Christmas.

I already have some great ideas, I can't wait to get started. :)

We just need a little snow outside...I would love that!

Anddd Thanksgiving is only 3 weeks away, I have been looking up yummy recipes! =]

As I type this, Jerry is reading ridiculous ski patrol scenarios to me that he has made up. Oy Vey, where did I find him?

Happy November!

Happy Halloween!!

I have been so busy lately with school. I keep thinking of things I want to post about, but I never seem to find the time to post about them.

In the last few weeks I have,

...creating a 5 day unit on Community Helpers, I will be teaching it to first graders in 2 weeks.

...visited my sister, Kimber and Jay. My sweet sister celebrated her 26th birthday. My whole life she has been calling me her 'little sister'. And I'm afraid that even though now at age 21 and 26, there doesn't seem to a huge age difference, I will always be her little sister, and I'm okay with that. :)

...finally finished paying off this semester of tuition. Today was my last payment, hallelujah.

...cleaned my house, while I was so busy with school, the house became a disaster.

Well, I know I have done more, but I just can't think of it right now.

I want to wish you a very Happy Halloween. Have a safe, but scary night. :)

Prince Charming

Lately, my Jerold Dean has been so sweet. First of all, he bought me my all time favorite movie. It came out of the Disney Vault last week. He even watched it with me. Someday, I will tell all of you why this movie is so special to me. :)

And tonight, I walked in my bedroom to find this, do you see it? Those big beautiful pink roses?! He even killed the spider that he brought in with them. :)

Oh how lucky I am to have him in my life. I couldn't ask for a better best friend, boyfriend and prince charming. :)

Anymore

One day a woman's husband died, and on that clear, cold morning, in the warmth of their bedroom, the wife was struck with the pain of learning that sometimes there isn't "anymore".

No more hugs, no more special moments to celebrate together, no more phone calls just to chat, no more "just one minute."

Sometimes, what we care about the most gets all used up and goes away, never to return before we can say good-bye, say "I love you."

So while we have it, it's best we love it, care for it, fix it when it's broken and heal it when it's sick.

This is true for marriage.....And old cars... And children with bad report cards, and dogs with bad hips, and aging parents and grandparents. We keep them because they are worth it, because we are worth it.

Some things we keep -- like a best friend who moved away or a sister-in-law after divorce. There are just some things that make us happy, no matter what.

Life is important, like people we know who are special.. And so, we keep them close!

Suppose one morning you never wake up, do all your friends know you love them?

I received this from a good friend. I know that this holds true, always.

I just hope that all of you know that I love you.

DO a good weekend.

Since the beginning of the semester, every Thursday (because we don't have class on Fridays) one of my teachers has been telling my class, "Do a good weekend." I always just thought, "hmmm that's dumb. Have a good weekend teach!" Haha...but then today I thought to myself, 'why does he say that'? So that got me thinking...

We always tell each other, "Have a good day!" "Have a good weekend." "Have a good day at school" But what will cause us to 'have' a good weekend? There isn't a promise out there that our weekend will be good. There isn't a guarantee, there isn't any assurance, or security or warranty. There is no one else out there that is going to ensure your 'good weekend'. But instead, we should "Do a good weekend."

We should [do] everything in our power to ensure that we have a good weekend....to [do] a good weekend.

Nothing in life is guaranteed, and we, ourself, should make our life enjoyable, to make it good.

To have a good life, we should do a good life. What does it mean to have a good life? To be happy? To have money? To make a difference in someone's life? All of which won't happen without action. Without a verb... [do] We must do, we must work, we must attempt, strive and sacrifice.

So [do] a good weekend, would you?

Do you know what I am going to [do] this weekend?

Jerry and I are going golfing with Bart and Rani. But first I am cleaning the highway, with Golden Key Honour Society. So if you see me on the side of I-84 between mile markers 101-103, wave, or even stop by and pick up a little trash, or at the very least, please refrain yourself from disposing of your trash at that point. :) I think we will finish off our weekend with a few chores and homework.

Do a good weekend my friends!