Oh the Memories

It's days like today that just thinking about old memories has me on the verge of tears. It has been a gloomy day. Jerry found out that his car is still broken, and he is thinking about selling it. Neither of us have heard from jobs and we rescheduled the meeting with the land lord. It's cloudy outside, and looks like it will probably rain.

I was going through my sent emails today, and found emails that my mom sent me. Just reading them makes me miss her, but I can hear her saying the things that she wrote. I miss having my mom send me emails, just to tell me hello, and that she missed me. I love that sweet Momma of mine and I will never ever ever forget how much she means to me. She was such a special lady.

Sometimes I wonder if other people think about their mom as often as I think about mine. I mean, when I really get down in the dumps, I talk to her. When I'm upset and Jerry asks me what's wrong, I tell him, "I just want my mom." Sometimes I talk to her. Sometimes I tell her to make me study. There are times when I question what she is doing at that very minute. There are times that I wonder what she would say about things like, the little house Jerry and I want to move into or the grades I am getting. I go to weddings and can't help but think how hard it will be for me to get married without my mom, in fact sometimes just thinking about having a wedding ceremony makes me consider not having one, because I know it will be so emotional...yet I still want one. I think about my mom when I am buying stuff for my soon-to-be niece Kimber. She would be so stinkin' excited about it.

I think about her everyday. And it's days like today, that I wish she was here so we could just talk, or for her to give me a hug and kiss me on my forehead. I wish she was here to tell me what Stanley and B were doing. I miss her.

While I was in France, my mom wrote me this message. I found it today, it sure is special.

Hi Colie I am at work and I downloaded incredimail so when you e-mail me today I will get an instant message so I can e-mail you back so watch for my reply. We had Easter Dinner at Richards it was good just the Grandma and the son were there no Dee. B & Stanley slept outside last night. It is going to be over 50 degrees here today! You should get some perfume for Dad he is all out. Well have you been sleeping in your own bed? Or who do you share with. How is the food? Bring me a decoration. Love you lots! MOM

This was dinner right after I got home from France. She was so excited for me to be home. It was the most time that we had ever spent apart. I miss her.